| Saying Goodbye |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|10:59 pm] |
Heard this song tonight and it hit me pretty hard.. beautiful song, really.
James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover
Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won. So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care. You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you. I've kissed your lips and held your head. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take. And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while. I'd be the father of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine, And I love you, I swear that's true. I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one. You have been the one for me...
(There's more, but this is plenty.) |
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| Laughed so hard, I nearly peed myself! |
[Dec. 15th, 2005|12:01 am] |
This is an actual apology e-mail from a cheating girlfriend.. her boyfriend's response directly follows.
Brad,
It would be difficult for me to be any more miserable right now, I feel like the worst person ever. First, let me start by saying that I am truly truly sorry, and I hate myself for hurting you. Of all the people in the whole entire world, you were honestly the last person that I would ever want to wrong in any way. There is no excuse at all or anything that happened, so I won't even try other than to say all of us had WAY too much to drink, and I did a stupid thing. I can handle you being pissed at me, I absolutely deserve it, I can even handle the ugly words that were exchanged between us, what I can't handle is thinking that you see me as a different person.
It is weird, I feel like I just went through a horrible break up or something. The world looked funny yesterday, I couldn't crack a smile if you paid me, there are songs I can't listen to, and I just feel beyond crushed. I don't know if you meant everything you said to me, and I am hoping that you didn't. I know that I was wrong on many levels, but I am also hoping that this is something that we can deal with. I know it sounds totally crazy and stupid, but you have come to play such a significant role in my life, I can't imagine my days without you.
It is totally strange and weird to say that, and you could say that my behavior didn't reflect that, and you would be correct. I hate feeling like you hate me, and I hate feeling like all of your friends think I am a terrible person, because I am not. I know there is nothing I can Say or do to take back what happened, but I just want you to know that fighting with you was just about the worst thing I could have ever imagined. It was right up there with one of the ugliest nights of my life, and I would give anything in the world to rewind and fix it. I am not sure if you will respond to this, part of me thinks that you won't. If not today, then maybe some other time.
Also, thanks for getting my stuff together, although I think my sunglasses are still at your house, if you could keep your eyes peeled for them that would be great. I can't even focus or work today, I can't eat, I seriously feel like it was an ugly break up, and I am hoping against hopes that it was not that and you are not done with me. Please don't cut me off, I really don't think I can handle that.
I am so sorry. Elizabeth
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RESPONSE:
Dear Elizabeth,
Thank you for your concern. I'll be sure to file it away under "L" for "Long-winded diatribes from drunken whores I couldn't care less about".
You did a stupid thing huh? No...doing long division and forgetting to carry the one is "a stupid thing," Mixing in a red sock with a load of whites is "a stupid thing," Blowing some guy in a bathroom for 45 minutes while I sit at the bar wondering if you're taking so long because you ate too much bran that morning isn't as much a "stupid thing" as it is grounds for permanent removal from my social calendar.
To be honest, I'm not sure if it was more amusing that you went and degraded yourself in a public toilet not once but twice in a 2 hour span, or that you seemed to think that by saying "Well, I didn't F**k him" somehow gave you a clean slate. So forgive me if I couldn't care less if the world "looked funny" to you yesterday. Since your world revolves around blow dryers, golden retrievers, Prada Bags and Jelly Beans, I'm sure it must have been most unsettling to actually have to consider someone else's feelings for 24 hours straight. The good news for you is that my friends don't think you're a terrible person, they just think you're the average run of the mill cum-guzzling blonde who commands about as much respect as your average child porn collector. I could be wrong but, it's pretty hard to respect some B&T chick who comes out to spend the night at my place even though she's seeing someone else in New jersey and winds up tongue-bathing the taint of anyone who decides 30 minutes of droning commentary on Colin Farrell's new haircut is worth putting up with for a hand job in the men's room. The good thing about being a guy is that when I eventually bump into the young lad who finger-blasted you on top of a towel dispenser last saturday, we'll have a shot and laugh our heads off about the time it happened.
By the way, for the amount of time you claim to spend in spin class you really must be doing something wrong to sport the thunder thighs you do. Watching you parade around my bedroom in a thong was a little like watching sea lions mate. Thought you might like to know.
PS. I forwarded about 100 people on this email.
Talk to you never,
Brad |
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| Oh goody.. I love "The Scream"! |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|01:51 pm] |
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<td align="center">Edvard Munch

Edvard Munch should paint your portrait. You are a very emotional person. You are always up for a good talk with one of your friends. You don't like to keep things bottled up. Often, you are friendly and outgoing, but that can change very easily to being introverted and cold.
Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com</td> |
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| a snippit |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|12:23 am] |
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| | exhausted | ] | Beth and I finally went to see Harry Potter tonight. It was excellent, as always. I don't know what some people were complaining about. I thought they did a nice job with it. Tomorrow's my day off, but we're short-handed, and I seem to be in workaholic mode these days, so I'll probably go in for a few hours. Will be a nice paycheck. I'm tired. I'm such an insomniac lately.. going to bed at 2:30am and getting up for work at 6.. oy, bubbies.. I don't know what type of fuel my body is running on, but it must be alien. Maybe I'll go to bed so it can be tomorrow already. |
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| Tell me something I DON'T know. lol |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|07:55 pm] |
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<td align="center">You are a happy drunk

When you are drunk, nothing gets you down. You are friendly with everyone, and probably get free drinks all the time because you are so nice to everyone.
Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com</td> |
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| Long time.. |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|09:41 pm] |
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| | David Gray - White Ladder | ] | Ahhh.. been awhile since I've found myself here, having anything to say at all. Not sure I even do this time. Life is ever-changing, and me, the poster child for change. Growth, maturity, responsibility, evolution.. a constant state of flux. I am still here. Constant.. seemingly indestructible. Life is terrible.. sad.. painful.. unsettling. Life is good. Bring it on.
P.S. - Random text messages and phone calls are incredible. Someone is thinking about me. Sweet. |
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| This was neat-o. |
[Oct. 13th, 2005|09:37 pm] |
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| | hummmmmmm... | ] |
Your Linguistic Profile:
| 80% General American English | 10% Upper Midwestern | 10% Yankee | 0% Dixie | 0% Midwestern |
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[Oct. 25th, 2004|07:08 pm] |
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| | exhausted | ] | I have no idea what you're talking about... ...so here's a bunny with a pancake on its head. |
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[Sep. 25th, 2004|02:12 pm] |
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| | indifferent | ] | Um.. I like.. live in Texas now. And it's.. large. I have a job. I clean people's houses. Some of the people are DIRTY. I never realized exactly how disgusting people could get. But.. not all of them are like that. Some of the jobs are easy. And the GOOD part about this job is that it's not really stressful at all. There aren't a bunch of customers bitching at me all the time.. and I don't have eleventeen bosses yellin at me about stupid shit all the time. So, for now, I can handle it. I'm poor, so I couldn't tell ya how fun it is here, cuz I haven't had any fun yet. No bars.. no clubs.. nothing terribly exciting. Just trying to get by. Not much else to report right now. |
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| Word. |
[Jul. 30th, 2004|03:57 pm] |
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| counting down |
[Jul. 26th, 2004|03:01 pm] |
We leave for Houston exactly 2 weeks from today. Getting excited/nervous.. but mostly excited. Packing, cleaning, making calls.. getting ready. This is just my alive and well check-in post. Won't be back online regularly for a few more weeks. Hope everyone is well. |
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| Stresssssssss |
[Jul. 5th, 2004|12:10 am] |
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| | stressed | ] | Ugh.. so we're moving. Somehow. We don't really have enough money to do this, so we're gonna hafta find a way to pull off a miracle. I'm not worried about finding work once we get there.. it's just making the money stretch in the meantime. I dunno.. My best friend has met someone.. so in the last five weeks of my living here, he has disappeared for a week and half of it so far. Not very nice. We had planned to spend lots of time together before I move away. I guess that's not gonna happen. I understand how new relationships are.. and wanting to spend every waking moment together.. but come on.. I'm moving 1100 miles away in less than a month. WAKE UP! Got my hairs cut Friday.. went from hair that was all one length.. near to the middle of my back in length.. and now the hair on the back of my head is about 2 inches long, and the top is about twice that. I'm not used to it yet, but everyone seems to like it, and it's fun to play with. Nothing else to report at this time. |
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| I KNEW IT!!! |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|07:35 pm] |
| this_yrs_love's LJ stalker is onmywaytoforeva! | | onmywaytoforeva is stalking you because they saw your picture and fell in love.. They are also slowly poisoning you! |
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| Lazy Sunday |
[May. 16th, 2004|02:05 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] | I fully intend to try and enjoy a nice sunny day off like today. Tomorrow, reality comes crashing back into my life once again, as I have to call this guy about a crappy job interview and then work all evening at my current crappy job. But.. very soon, I won't have my current crappy job anymore, because my store is either closing or being bought by a company that I am ineligible to work for. Just my luck, that makes two separate companies I have worked for that get bought by the same corporation. So, the garbage is out, the bathroom is clean and later on, it's off to Cari and Andy's for dinner with the famdamily. I can't seem to get the screen door on the patio back on track, which really sucks because it's sunny and 73 out today. Would be nice to have some fresh air in the place.
Someday, I will have enough money to just be comfortable.. just enough to stop freaking out about bills and groceries and gas money, etc. all the time.
...someday. |
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| yeahyeahyeah |
[May. 6th, 2004|11:31 pm] |
Kimberly is the #24 most common female name. 0.504% of females in the US are named Kimberly. Around 642600 US females are named Kimberly! source namestatistics.com |
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| I'm too old for this. |
[May. 3rd, 2004|10:57 am] |
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| | hungover | ] |
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| | my head is still buzzing a little | ] | Okay.. so last night, I finally go out drinking.. for the first time really since New Years. And OH.. MY.. GOD.. I got really wasted. So, of course, since I'm old and can't party like I used to, my head feels like it might explode at any moment. I did, however, have an awesome time. Definitely a fun time had by all. We were just being silly like old times, and I didn't even mind that a certain few people that I normally don't like were there. But, I guess if you have enough to drink, you can tolerate the presence of just about anyone. lol Whoever thought of having $12 long island pitchers is either a genius, or needs to be taken out and shot. I'll decide when my headache goes away. |
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[Apr. 24th, 2004|11:18 pm] |
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| | touched | ] | I love you more with each passing day. Even if it may not always seem like it, and even if things aren't always as perfect as I'm sure we both wish they were. In my nightmares.. in my tiny, insecure moments.. those moments that are mine and mine alone.. I still wonder if I'm going to blink one day and find that this was all just a fantasy. In those moments, I find myself without words.. so utterly grateful for the gift you've given me. Yet, still in a bit of disbelief.. but.. It's not a fantasy. You are real. We are real. There could never be anyone I'd want more than you.. love more than you.. need more than you. No one could ever complete my soul the way that you do. When I look at you, I am home.. and I never want to leave. |
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